Sometimes, it's just good to have a friend, especially one who is within walking distance. A friend who can provide that neutral stand. Though his presence may seem to cause a casual bias, but it's good to feel like there's someone on your side for once.

The whole new life going on for me, is just a whole lot of mess. Things that appear in textbooks, are merely 10% of the entire pie. There's a whole lot going on behind the scenes, and the problem of trust. Who can you really put your trust on? I mean when it comes down to talking about your problems and issues, who can you really trust that will not betray you by tell tailing you at the end of the day. Even the closest companion beside your desk, may have other agendas and intentions. All that is just plain part of life.

Anyway, today's frustration is all else, other than having a good friend in need. Someone I was graced by this friend's presence, and it was truly in the favor of Fate himself. Who knew that by missing an elevator floor would actually allow me to open up and talk about my problems? I was keeping it all bottled up in me, feeling the toughness of the journey, perhaps even not used to it. That's the whole issue about being the segmented newbie. People who have their coalitions tend to exert greater pressure, influences and impacts on your newbie life. All efforts to ice-break, somehow did not really matter anymore.

[Encoded]: On a general note, today's frustration is regarding the issue about individual acceptance and receptivity to creative thinking. Organizations are a silly bunch of twitters who often say A, but want B very much. And when you produce B, which is perceived as what they want, they tell you C! They say C will lead to A and of course C is of top crucial considerations. They talk about routines in life, but they don't see themselves as looking at C, as a routine, but more of a task at hand. People of a routine nature, would consider B has a threat as B is seen to be difficult, non-implementable and highly risky to even bring up.

[Encoded]: As such, although the overall organization wants B, there are some who hinder the process of acceptance, hence ideas are blocked. This can be understood, as it has been highlighted in textbooks. But just looking at the level of acceptance, just disgusts me dearly. To think they wanted new baked eyes and a fruity mindset, today I change my mind and tell myself, "perhaps...perhaps it's just not the right time, in the right place."

I don't know how else I should actually phrase this issue, but one thing is for sure. If I was issued four ammo magazine clips to fight a endless war, I would have doomed myself by switching my rifle to automatic, and firing it into the bushes.

"Who do you work for?" - frostdude