I brought myself to smile at the world's happiness. Well, no one gets everything in life. This is what we learn by opportunity cost. And we sacrifice things because some others should get it, probably for all the right reasons. And we are just better of without them, because somewhere, someone is getting it harder than what you or I am going through.

I believe when i let go, there's a reason that perhaps someone will receive the better of what i've released from my hands. What i forego is not an opportunity, but more of a gift back to the society. I've changed this thread of negative regrets into what i call "a leap of faith". From an entrepreneurial point of view, that's bull shit but why would i take something that is not mine? I looked back at many past instances, which today these instances have grown in such an amazing way, that i would simply smile and shake the hands of a worthy opponent.

There was no point competing because; if i did, it would become a hypercompetition condition in which no one would gain in the end. And the worse part, the suffering would suffer more than the overall gain which i would ever reap from this venture. I won't say leave it to fate to decide the routes we take but i'm saying; think thrice before acting, because sometimes it pays not to be as selfish as what our parents have brought us up to become.

But instead, we should take on a role which allows us to be free of our doubts and crude thoughts and for once be what God made us to be; a simple human being. These complications that we inflict on our lives, they are only a part and parcel of a game-theory which should not exist in the first place. We made such complications to shield ourselves from the simplicity; simplicity of being too ourselves in a way that we hide our identities, we hide our opinions, we put on a false front just so that people would gently accept us into their lives as a fellow "friend".

The only thing i would say is, be happy for the things you have gotten and be glad that things have been lost; for it was a simple tradeoff which many have to make in order to keep the balance of proportional greed and gluttony. We were not made this way; to be as complex and unforgiving. Thus, i would be happy to see more happiness in my life; because it would show that there is some hope that one day happiness would knock on my front door and seek my permission for entry.

But until then.. it is worth giving, even if i would obtain the countless loss and despair along the way.

"The first one, is the worst one" - frostdude