And today, i've decided that the-step-forward was just too much. I could have handled it but somehow i'm not mature enough, to handle it as professionally as others do. Apparently, it is one of those phases in which i start to feel like a human being for once. I believe this experience has greatly influenced how i perceive things and i guess that the next "best thing" that comes my way will receive my full potential.

Time and time again, i find myself storing up a certain kind of potential energy as a form that would bring that "shine" to a person. And over a period of time, this shine doesnt seem to shine as bright as it could be. Am i getting too tired of this which has dawned upon me? Sometimes i believe i need that rest, but sometimes i think i'm just simply putting too much energy into something which provides a negative reinforcement and feedback.

At many times, days seem too normal while nights seem too quiet. Although this is of great order of enjoyment, i tend to find myself walking into the a dark tunnel of disturbing echos. The memories of the past remind that my actions can be as flawed as it could be and at times God's judgment reflects what destiny has installed for me.

One way or another, the ending is inevitable and unpreventive. The kick-back and watch the show attitude always kicks in and i find myself staring back at the starting line while putting the puzzles back into place. What are these puzzles? The puzzles of my heart.

"It was best left unsaid, but i spoke and it's too late." - frostdude