It's been awhile. It's been awhile since i actually opened my doors. I know there has been a "Do Not Disturb" sign hanging on the door nob. These past few months have made me realized that it is not as bad as I thought it would be. I mean, though the existing situation is not as pleasant, I would say the lessons and experiences that i bring back with me are simply astonishing.

Maybe I have not really gotten into it but the feeling is good, so thats probably why many have looked upon it and decided to accept it. All this time, i have always found myself to be a little on the safety risk side and you know, just trying to cover up my tracks. But just these few months, have made me realize how insightful this experience is.

This year has become so complicated. In 2008 to 2009, i would have that opportunity to tell you that life is as simple as it could ever be. It would be clear cut but nevertheless boring in nature. I found those days to be of great meditation. Whereas in 2010, I had hit a very deliberate turn in life where somehow the wind is blowing in the right direction, and with my calculated decisions, the only problems are simply... inevitable problems.

This all sounds so vague in nature but on the other hand, think of it as a reflection of oneself. How can one reflect clearly on what he has done; when truly the things that were done have already been done and it was in the right intention and frame of mind. This first half of the year has indeed made several milestones in my living life and i believe its because of these milestones that make life worth living for.

"A life worth living for; is waking up and making a difference in life." - frostdude