One of the last few entries before this year, 2010 comes to a close. How would i sum my year up? This year has been equally fair to me. You would know this if you recall the number of good times and the number of bad times. But then you think again, the occurrence and intensity of these good times outweigh the bad times, and somehow you tell yourself that perhaps you can actually afford to incur these bad times. Well, since you can't have everything in life, we should just settle for the simple things in life which put a smile on our faces.

The poorly developed times of 2010, are:

1. Car mishaps
2. Failed IPPT
3. Flawed family ties
4. Degrading sibling relationship issues
5. Social network reducing...again.
6. Blinded by love - Counter [Twice]
7. Pride issues
8. Loss of road confidence
9. Monetary impaired
10. Almost feeling the way I did in 2006-2007.

The many good times I had this year, were:

1. A good romance at the start of the year
2. Had a 2010 valentine to spend with, though it was for the sake of satisfying the presence of a valentine
3. Good exam results
4. Passed my driving test
5. Managed to prove my fitness is still at that level of 11.59mins; though I did not really pass my entire IPPT
6. Got a new computer
7. Confessed to a deadly romance in the 3rd quarter of this fiscal year
8. Visited several countries such as Vietnam, Shen Zhen, Johor, London
9. Greater realization of one's self and abilities

I guess every story has a beginning and mine has yet to fully unfold. I've shown myself to the exit many times this year. Somehow, this intellect is I swear a double edge sword. I confessed to a very close friend a few nights back. It was imperative to really get those words of my chest that night, and I guess only those who really bother to care, actually sit through a "listening ear" convincingly. There are those who try very hard to listen and care but in fact what they are doing is simply impression management, and trying to gather the appropriate intel.

The lessons that I've learnt this year are mainly regarding the issues of dealing with humans. I find that these specific creatures are so dynamic that the matter at hand is not really important compared to dealing with the dynamics of human behavior. That is one of the difficulties and challenges when getting things done. The people who need to act on these tasks, make it difficult, simply difficult.

Before i bid farewell to 2010, I know my time is almost up. Emotionally prepared, but mentally still not willing to lose. Perhaps its the music, but perhaps I'm becoming more human.

"Embraced by the many brilliance and uncertainties that life brings along" - frostdude