Older by Another Year

Today, as the clock strikes 12, I age by another year. It seems yesterday since I was young and clueless about making proper decisions. Somehow, life has gotten ahead of all of us and as time goes by, age doesn't seem to be a main concern. In fact, many of us wished that we did not wish to be older.

I guess, when we were young, we always wanted to grow a little bit older, just so that we can make our own decisions and manage our own time and having the necessary responsibilities. But as we grow older, people demand more from us and our abilities. Its a way of compensating age and experiences with greater and wiser outputs.

I'm still deciding which age to really wish to be in because every yearly cycle i go through seems to be different and indeed a challenge. The past year has been very studious moment for me, with the race against time and having loads of it at the end of the year. I guess 2010 has one of the most events in my life. The many leap of faith that i've taken and the many tests i've sat through, and not to mention to several disappointments. These are simply just too priceless to even say I want to forget about it.

One of the thoughts that strike me the most is the apparent leap of responsibilities, duties and roles that i might have to play in the future. With age catching up on me, I see myself in the next 3-6 months with a load on my back. Time being stolen from me, with the race to earn big bucks, only leaves me wondering what a life I've been enjoying for the past 2 months.

I won't say as we grow older, we tend to be wiser because everybody grows old, and they too become wiser. So measuring up to capacity, those who are wiser, tend to stay wiser over others, despite the age increment. So the idea of "older means wiser", actually doesn't really cut it, since everybody at the end of the year, grows older and maybe wiser (or just a saying).

I've never found the celebration of a singular day, any special than other days. I'm more of a man who gives than receives, so the anticipation of receiving on this very special day, doesn't really seem to create an impression of whether I do receive anything or not. In fact, I feel the need to reject such appreciations, because somehow, getting them seems ethically wrong though non-sensible.

Being a man who gives more than receives, the idea of presents or treats just seem redundant and often may seem a little degrading. But nevertheless, the rationale of festive giving is all about the heart and effort. And i guess the best present that one can ever receive, is the gift of time. Taking the trouble and effort to avoid the need for monetary gifts, and just incur a simple amount of time, normally has a greater impression.

Well, the rest have spoken. Today, is just another day, but its the start of another new year, with newer opportunities, challenges and possible room for the attainment of eternal happiness.

"My 21st' of December 20XX" - frostdude