Anger strikes back

Furious, just utterly furious. I can never seem to maintain this neutral or positive image with him. I see and envy other families who have that kind of close intimacy with their siblings, and I just wonder why is mine so equally behaving like a complete moron.

With the age gap being leap over two different generations, I find myself in difficulty even communicating with him. Somehow, I just find his every word spoken like a whining clock and whining should be left to the parents, and not done on behalf. Apart from the endless whining, he takes pleasure in assuming that I'm a complete green horn with no prior reality experience at all while he believes he is blessed by the gods of knowledge. And even him, he can't even get his 30 years of life together, and he sticks his pointy smelly nose into mine. If you're going to set an example, at least do it right at your end, before teaching others how to live theirs.

Then again comes to disgusting part where he tries to win your approval. Seeing even his words can do so much dismay, he turns to the use of money. And even money, seems so unbearable to even receive from him, because every dollar seems to be a burden or a favor which I owe him in the future.

Just yesterday, a simple lending of his bicycle to cycle to a destination, created a perfect opportunity for him to exercise his brilliant competency in consultation and advisory. And he ended the argument with, "Do you not understand? I told you not to ride my bicycle." Kiddy and childish as it sounds, I took it completely to heart. He actually played the "DON'T TOUCH MY PROPERTY" context strategy which straight away created an internal W-T-F surge in my nerves.

And you see why you are not on my LIKE list? Just another reason for you to be on my UNLIKE list. His presence just completely irritates me and I see other siblings are more supportive of one another. Somehow, his lack of approval or disagreements often hold me back from what I actually can do or want to do. Yes, I know you can't cycle for nuts, but at least do not deprive others of their talents, just because you perceive the issues of safety problems.

This cycling issue is just the layer of iced arguments, which I'm referring to. There are other times when negotiation seems too tiring, just because he has his own opinions and I've mine. So that is why, sometimes I don't even speak, because knowing his answers and opinions, I just don't wanna tire myself with his nonsenses.

"Next time you give me anything, I'm gonna throw it back at you, because it is YOUR PROPERTY" - frostdude