Dilemmas often take place when one has the right ambitions but lack the ability to withdraw from the battle. Often, this dilemma catches us off guard because we believe that the perceptive mind outweighs the existing. One of the most powerful setback which I've faced recently was the ability to take back and pull out of a situation, thus the results were gloriously outnumbered.

There was this time when I hit that peak of my selfish youth days whereby the island was as self sustaining as it could ever be. It took no chains nor hooks to hold this fellow down, as it voyage around the seven seas, in search of the perfect antidote for the dying legacy. The push for such selfish means, had caused many unspoken circumstances which only I could be held responsible for. Those days, the perceptive measures often over-ruled the individual characteristics and traits. After all, no man is an island, only to have surfaced during the past few years.

On a bigger note, I for one am confused with the way of life, but nevertheless one can only force itself to understand what it disagrees. I've begin to accept the many disagreements which I've made for myself over the passing years. I guess one of the most crucial understanding is the fact that whatever we disagree, are often because we discard them from our minds due to the lack of acceptance of perhaps culture, history or facts.

My confusion of this new era of generation which I'm in, only states one thing that things change and those that do not adapt as quickly, often get left behind. I was one of those who had this resistance to proceed on, due to the traditional legacy issues which I've built around myself over the past few years. The new generations among us are but bold creatures who have absorbed the failures of our generations, and implemented new techniques to overcome older generations and their perceptive discomfort. I find that awefully helpful but there's something which I've been lacking; a good understanding of the new generation because I'm still clouded by my own legacy that sometimes these things just do not follow through.

Lastly, the biggest dilemma I'm facing is the progress of my last project. I won't say it is my EVER last project but one of the last academic projects ever. The starting begins with an ambitious and yet foresight thought of the future, which apparently I'm trying to influence by acquiring a subject which is complicated and yet, somehow I distrust my doubts of having the right abilities to handle it. Somehow, I'm being overwhelmed by a sort of uneasy feeling, thus resulting in the lack of progress or motion. The effort is terrible, probably due to the poor sleep schedules which I've been undertaking recently. Nevertheless, it is still not within my mouth reach to confirm the final review of my decision, despite many attempts by external consultants.

"Learn to agree to disagree; for there will be one day when you might have to disagree with others in order to agree." - frostdude