Reflection till April so far.

Before this month comes to an end, I think i should add another post for the sake of adding another post to the April Archive. This month, April has been the toughest and one of the challenging moments of the year. After this whole big fever recovery state, it takes quite some time to really pick up the stick and continue the run.

April was also a month of many crossroads and a variation of different choices to make. I would say im not as wise as i was in the Army. I believe the people there are pretty rational creatures and they only thrive on simple facts such as rest time and motivation. In the outside world, things can go side-ways or even down the drain. It's no longer as simple as it should be. And in this month, i learnt this the hard way.

In this month of April, there were significant changes in the proportion of my lifestyle. I finally managed to move away from the ugly things in life and the many possibilities of addiction to a certain short-lived leisure; Facebook.

In this particular month, i also woke up from another living nightmare. This nightmare lives on when i'm awake, walking along the streets. I believe its the digging up of the old cardboard boxes which contains many issues of the past. Somehow, these artifacts really do have sentimental value after sometime. The only thing i really failed to do was to confront these memories and leave them as uncared artifacts.

April was a painful journey, and its ending is closer than i know it. In another few more months, i think i would not be able to see myself as a student anymore; but in fact a pure economic knowledge worker. And April has made me realized that, things are bigger than me; and it is through laying the facts out that will eventually improve my overall self.

The month of May is gonna be quite academic in nature, as there is gonna be alot of memory testing and simply loads to worry about. I worry myself sometimes. May poses as another typical challenge of stressing the mind and another moment of endurance. Perhaps in the month of May, i would have to close my eyes and put one leg forward.



I believe life is about "putting one-leg forward". I guess we all feel that risk taking and future planning have their pitfalls. I, for one had this feeling but it is essential as these agencies force you to commit. And this shall be done. In the month of May, i will entrust myself that it is okie to have a bit of commitment at certain special areas in my life; and i hope this would cultivate a better habit to how i see the fundamentals.

"April has made me see that perseverance and networking have their contributing benefits and factors" - frostdude