Busy? Well, kind of. With all the chaos going around, i can never find the time to login to Blogger. Firstly, I must say sometimes the weather is such a torture. When I have to rush out to get work done, it always seems to pour down on me, especially when I do not have a freaking umbrella. However, when it is time to relax and enjoy myself, it never fails to shine and heat up the entire place, causing me to feel all sticky and fizzy.

I've been wrecking myself with the long bus rides and 100 minutes of torture on the road. Since 16th to 23 July, I've been going back and fore from home to Buk1t Bat0k Dr1ving Center. It is a painful way of killing time. What's worse is that the waiting time is longer than the travelling time, bloody frustrating. I managed to clear up to stage 4 in 11 lessons. I kind of found it a little exciting, due to the need to relearn fast and try to meet as little lessons as possible. I was pretty disappointed when one instructor only passed me for 1 stage for the entire day. Nevertheless, I made up for it on the next lesson. There was one day, I think last Monday when i totally stoned on the wheel, with myself just feeling so emotionally impaired.

I should be pacing myself from next week onwards with just one lesson per week. Just think 200 minutes was tiring enough for me, as i had 3 days of 200 minutes and it is no joke. The kind of mental shagness cannot be described. During the drive, you won't feel a thing but when you calm yourself down and sit at a corner, you will just FAINT and SHUTDOWN. That's what i did everytime when i got home, so that would explain why I took 4-5 hours to complete 1 movie at night.

I've been drawn back to my roots; DOTA. I never knew that I would bring myself back to this game. Although I left this game like many years ago, somehow the game still has this attractive force that brings me back to my seat and ensures that i sit through a 60 minutes game.

Oh yes, ever since last week, school has begun. I always wonder how people do cope with driving as a part-time thing accompanying their work/school/whatever things they do have to do. For me, i've decided to take on driving as a full-time thing so I managed to clear it in a week's worth. But for others, gosh it must be even more painful for them to travel to BBDC for just a lesson, especially those who take night driving lessons.

I met up with my project supervisor and we spoke about the research proposal. I'm still feeling a little uncertain and vague about the topic which I'm gonna pull up of my sleeve. Come to think of it, it is rather fascinating how time passed so fast; so fast that I've received the IPPT reminder by MINDEF. Darn, when i saw that message, i felt totally weak in the knees. I've yet to complete a 2.4km in months. I've been doing speed training for 1.2km which I must say the timing is good but after 1.2km, I feel like I'm gonna faint.

Life for me now is all so random and unknown. I can simply change my entire day's schedule because of a new driving lesson slot being available. Sigh. Hot-Tub Time Machine, the movie has showed me a valuable lesson that as you grow older, and become attached and even married, you tend to become dependent on your spouse for human relationship that you actually lose grasp of networks of friends and other important personal commitments.

My independence over this week has been sound and quiet. With my parents overseas for the entire week, I've seen a quieter sight of the surroundings and in fact the peace is rather satisfying. Nevertheless, it is a mixed feeling as to such evaluation because sometimes not having anyone to talk to the entire day seemly kicks you back into a state of loneliness and unhappiness.

"A dream after another, putting myself in different scenarios with different action possibilities; but one thing still remains the same; Me." - frostdude