In the clear, finally. I'm in the clear now. This entry will have a single meaning compared to the rest of the other entries. It is my way of saying...
All that nonsense was brushed away after several inspirational follow-ups. All those weaks of frustration and suddenly a greater surge of anger and desperation when i became the only working party. Perhaps, i've taken for granted that independence is the key to survival when i started to feel the cohesiveness. I was feeling some withdrawal all of a sudden when help was helplessly not available.
Today, my friend told me about my other friend's tragic incident and how bad this friend felt leaving me stranded. In fact, i was not remotely angry but kind of guilty apparently. I never knew he felt this way about his departure, coz it seemed like he abruptly left with a phone call of "hi, i really gotta go back.." I was devastating but i told him, "ya go ahead go ahead". But after hearing what my other friend had to say about his feelings, reflections and issues, i think he has already done enough on his part.
Another recollection was the month of March, whereby I got caught up with my arch villains. I was pushed to the near extent that i decided to walk the plank and hope to be rescued by Superman at the very last moment. I told himself, "fine, let's all sink in this lifeboat together". I was at the nearest peak of giving up and then i received a pleasant email. It was in another language which i should be familiar but i am not APPARENTLY. I had it translated and found it to be very inspiring. It was embedded in my mind passively and come to think of it now, it really was one of the energy-blast for me recently.
The last inspiring take-home was the conversation with a fellow respected role model. I spoke to him regarding the progress of the what-if memorandum. He found it to be rather intriguing and pleasant. I love talking to him as he is such an independent opinion giver, that i always get reliable feedback from him, although not very timely. He even shared his personal experience and opinions. He spoke about his observation and understanding of the latest happenings and believe that i am way short handed. That, really surprised me, seeing how he took the risk to be informally bias and speak his mind. I did not feel that much of a distant anymore, but rather a true friend indeed. I confessed that it has not been very easy on my end, since the talk is nothing without the WALK. Nevertheless, he spoke about keeping up the goodwill spirit, for someday it will pay off as a character and in future personality building.
These 3 people really made my day, and this is the kind of intangible reward which no one else can honestly give without having a hidden agenda. Most people i know, they do not put up a good front to start with, thus there is not mutual give-back. I know somebody has to make the sacrifice first, but it is time, someone do the same in return first. I'm tired of the fact that i'm the one having to take a personal initiatives and get back a reward that is subjectively compromised or of a certain self-interest goal.
And as this entry comes to an end, i would say even the least that one can say is thank you. its not a mere means for a gesture but its for a long term remembrance that when someone looks back, the best that one can ever remember are your words of thanks rather than the plain sight of a mere person. it goes a long way to say thank you, rather than thanks or thx or thks. Just taking that extra effort makes a difference and even if you deny that fact, it shows the person's commitment and level of gratitude. Short forms simply show the other party's means of an informality for getting something done.
All that nonsense was brushed away after several inspirational follow-ups. All those weaks of frustration and suddenly a greater surge of anger and desperation when i became the only working party. Perhaps, i've taken for granted that independence is the key to survival when i started to feel the cohesiveness. I was feeling some withdrawal all of a sudden when help was helplessly not available.
Today, my friend told me about my other friend's tragic incident and how bad this friend felt leaving me stranded. In fact, i was not remotely angry but kind of guilty apparently. I never knew he felt this way about his departure, coz it seemed like he abruptly left with a phone call of "hi, i really gotta go back.." I was devastating but i told him, "ya go ahead go ahead". But after hearing what my other friend had to say about his feelings, reflections and issues, i think he has already done enough on his part.
Another recollection was the month of March, whereby I got caught up with my arch villains. I was pushed to the near extent that i decided to walk the plank and hope to be rescued by Superman at the very last moment. I told himself, "fine, let's all sink in this lifeboat together". I was at the nearest peak of giving up and then i received a pleasant email. It was in another language which i should be familiar but i am not APPARENTLY. I had it translated and found it to be very inspiring. It was embedded in my mind passively and come to think of it now, it really was one of the energy-blast for me recently.
The last inspiring take-home was the conversation with a fellow respected role model. I spoke to him regarding the progress of the what-if memorandum. He found it to be rather intriguing and pleasant. I love talking to him as he is such an independent opinion giver, that i always get reliable feedback from him, although not very timely. He even shared his personal experience and opinions. He spoke about his observation and understanding of the latest happenings and believe that i am way short handed. That, really surprised me, seeing how he took the risk to be informally bias and speak his mind. I did not feel that much of a distant anymore, but rather a true friend indeed. I confessed that it has not been very easy on my end, since the talk is nothing without the WALK. Nevertheless, he spoke about keeping up the goodwill spirit, for someday it will pay off as a character and in future personality building.
These 3 people really made my day, and this is the kind of intangible reward which no one else can honestly give without having a hidden agenda. Most people i know, they do not put up a good front to start with, thus there is not mutual give-back. I know somebody has to make the sacrifice first, but it is time, someone do the same in return first. I'm tired of the fact that i'm the one having to take a personal initiatives and get back a reward that is subjectively compromised or of a certain self-interest goal.
And as this entry comes to an end, i would say even the least that one can say is thank you. its not a mere means for a gesture but its for a long term remembrance that when someone looks back, the best that one can ever remember are your words of thanks rather than the plain sight of a mere person. it goes a long way to say thank you, rather than thanks or thx or thks. Just taking that extra effort makes a difference and even if you deny that fact, it shows the person's commitment and level of gratitude. Short forms simply show the other party's means of an informality for getting something done.
"The best has yet to come." - frostdude
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